"Nothing in my life is hard."  ~  Diego Palma

I wrote about this several weeks ago.  I asked Diego, an incredibly gifted healer, if it was hard being around people suffering all the time.

His answer penetrated every layer of conceptual knowledge in my mind, and struck my heart so strongly that I knew that it would stick with me forever.

If he read this, he might feel like this was a Truth, something universal that passed through him and not something he owned.  He also taught me how to find the place where power comes from, and how it is limitless, and can be tapped at any moment.

"Wisdom comes from devotion" (paraphrased) ~ Myra

"If you understand yourself, you will understand the entire Universe." ~ la Abuelita Ayahuasca

Many people anticipated that I would face depression when I came home, but I have not.  As soon as I entered the US, I felt the fear around me, so strong it was almost tangible.  My things were searched three times, and visitors were subject to fingerprint and retinal scans, and numerous other measures.  My hair gel was confiscated.

Later, I walked through the streets of Philadelphia and remembered all of the things I used to hate, but I couldn't see any of it anymore.  When I smiled, I saw smiling faces in return.  The whole world had changed, because my whole world had changed.

For a few days, I felt like I had some type of obligation to go back down into the muck and drag people up with me, until I realized how foolish that was;  I need only to transcend that which doesn't serve me, and let anything that wants to gravitate towards me, do it on its own.

I've had moments where I felt my old patterns coming back, old attitudes, likes and dislikes, but the difference now is that I see them, and I can cut them off at the pass.  I smile, and remember fondly why I used to feel the ways I did, but they can only come back in if I let them.

They can only get me if I allow them in.  I have compassion for my former struggles, and a calm awareness of my place now.  I don't know where I'm going next, and don't really feel like I need to know.

I will return to Peru to continue training in plant medicines, when the time is right.  I want to sail around the world now, when the time is right.

When I was in Peru, I felt like I had been on the road for twenty years.  Now that I'm home, I feel like it went in the blink of an eye.

I have learned so much, and unlearned so much.

I have some more videos, and a few more stories that may be posted here in the future.  But who knows when that will be?

So just in case its a while, I want to thank you for riding this ride with me.  Every time I hit this site and saw how many readers I had, it put a huge smile on my face to know that on some plane, there were people who wanted to see what I would run into next.

And a special thank you to everyone who contributed when I was down to nothing.  You helped me get into the jungle and retrieve an e-mail from God, and to have a little extra time to fall in love.

Thank you everybody; I love and cherish your existence, and I wish you all the best in your own adventures.

~ monserrate (sonny sunami)